Uncertainty keeps us stuck replaying what ifs. One way to move through it is to decide the now is certain and decide who you want to be and what you want to do now.
Continue readingWhat Superman and Superwoman DIDN’T Tell You About Your Value
What is your value as a human being? Can it be created or changed? What you believe about this question can make all the difference in your life.
Continue readingThe Journey to Self-Esteem is Strewn with Diamonds, Manure and Nail Polish
Most of us trying to improve our confidence by being more perfect or at least trying to convince others we are. There is a much more powerful, fun an effective way to improve our self-concept.
Continue readingIt’s Okay For People To Be Wrong About You
I like it when people respect me and admire me. Most of us do. We spend a lot of our time in social situations managing the way others feel and think about us. If you really believed that it was okay for people to be wrong about you, how would that change your behavior? This idea has radically changed my life, improving my relationships and allowing me to focus on what really matters.
People Pleasing is Exhausting
When one of my daughters was a toddler she had some health issues and cried almost constantly. A lot of the day was spent in tantrums and tears. We felt so badly for her. We read lots of parenting books, tried lots of things and worked hard to find her the medical care she needed.
However, caring for a child who was so emotionally volatile was exhausting. It was also humiliating to bring her out in public because I felt so judged.
People Will Judge
I remember the looks on people’s faces as they watched me with her in a store or when we were at church. They stared. They lifted their eyebrows. They rolled their eyes. They walked away. They pretended to ignore me, but their faces told a different story.
Sometimes people made comments like, “Wow, she’s loud,” or “She’s a handful.” It wasn’t uncommon to receive unsolicited parenting advice, “Have you tried just ignoring it?” or “She really needs some consequences and boundaries.” Sometimes people we knew a bit better would say things like, “I used to think you just couldn’t handle your daughter, but now that we have a tough one I feel bad for judging you.”
We aren’t perfect parents, but we were trying earnestly and had tried A LOT of things. I believe most people were just observing what they saw. Because I felt awkward about the way my daughter was acting and I worried people would judge me, their comments felt a lot like judgement.
Occasionally some good soul would say something like, “I’ve totally been there.” One time my daughter had a tantrum in the entry way of a large building. She was large enough that it was difficult to lift her up and take her out. I remember a woman who stopped and said, “You’re doing great.” I loved that human being! I had some wonderful friends and family who were supportive and loving during this difficult period. I am still so grateful for this.
Feeling Misunderstood
One day though, I confided in a friend how discouraged I was feeling about how my daughter acted in public. She said, “There is nothing wrong with your daughter—there is only something wrong with you!” I don’t think she meant to hurt my feelings, but it hit at the core of what I worried people were thinking. “Because your child is acting so difficult, there is something wrong with you!” I found myself not wanting to go out with my daughter in public.
Every time my daughter had a meltdown, I not only had the very real emotional, mental, and physical work of helping her, I also felt like I had to defend myself, my daughter’s situation, my actions and my parenting. I didn’t want to be judged. Though MANY people were loving and compassionate, it was hard for most people to understand. I felt a lot of resentment that I was misunderstood.
Ditching Resentment for Confidence
I could see resentment was eating me away. It was eroding my relationships, my happiness and enjoyment socially. So I made a decision: it was okay if people judged me. Of course people didn’t understand! How could they unless they had been through something similar? People judge. There isn’t much we can do about it. It’s part of being human.
I decided to believe in myself. I knew I was doing my best, and it was okay if people thought I was a “bad mom.” It was so freeing!
Once I let go of trying to prevent other people’s judgement, my life changed. I remember going to Michael’s with my daughter screaming the whole time and being able to genuinely return smiles for the rude looks I got. I remember just being able to listen to people’s comments of sympathy or concern and keep an open mind without feeling defensive when friends shared ideas about how to help her.
With so much mental and emotional space cleared up from worrying about being judged and trying to defend myself, I was able to use the space to be more creative and have more energy to help my daughter and get in a healthier place myself. Also, because I was less defensive I was able to actually accept some of the good ideas people offered. Some were helpful, others weren’t. But I was able to think of them as offerings of love instead of darts of judgment.
It’s Okay For People to Be Wrong About Me
I learned a powerful lesson through this experience. The things that I notice in others are often reflections of how I feel about myself. When I feel confident that I’m doing my best, I was able to be okay with other’s judgement of me because I didn’t believe it. I realized they could think whatever they wanted and I could still sincerely know I was doing my best. This was a tremendous relief.
Believe in Yourself
Who do you try to please?
Stop trying to convince them you are right or good, and start believing in yourself enough to let them be wrong about you.
How to Fail the Right Way
Failure doesn’t have to be a shameful, disappointing experience. It is possible to enjoy failing. It may sound a bit far-fetched, but it’s possible….and it’s essential to living a life where you are creating results you love. It all comes down to how you think about failing.
Why We Don’t Like to Fail
I don’t know many people who LIKE to fail. What is it about failure that we’re afraid of? For most people failing causes feelings of disappointment, guilt, or shame. Since none of us like experiencing those feelings, we avoid anything that would produce them: we don’t go to the exercise class because we might look weird, we don’t talk to someone new because they might not like us, we don’t try something new because we “don’t know how.”
Failure Can Be Fun
What if failure brought a totally different set of feelings? What if failing was motivating, fascinating, or even fun? It can be.
My daughters and I tried to get a taxi the other day. We live in China, but don’t speak Chinese yet. The first empty taxi looked at us and drove right past. The second one purposely moved to the furthest lane to avoid us. The third one stopped, but after looking at the address, he yelled something at us in Chinese and motioned for us to get out.
At this point my girls and I were discouraged. It was hot and we were all complaining; we wanted to go home and give up. My brain kept offering me thoughts like, “Why won’t these taxis take us?” “Is there something wrong with us?” “This is so frustrating!” But those thoughts caused me to feel disappointed, embarrassed and frustrated.
I wanted to set a different tone for my kids. I said, “Let’s see how many taxis it will take to get one that will drive us. I bet it will be nine.” My kids perked up and took bets on how many it would be. As the taxis drove by us it turned into a game to see who would get closest to their bet. Eventually we got a taxi, and were on our way. Amazingly, our spirits were high—we had fun comparing how many times it took to get a taxi versus how many we had guessed (one of my daughters won with her guess of seven). Changing our failure into a game made it fun.
How to Fail the Right Way
Most great people have failed many times. Thomas Edison said, “I have not failed ten thousand times. I have not failed once. I have succeeded in proving that those ten thousand ways will not work.” I’m glad Thomas Edison didn’t stop when he failed. Each time he tried something that didn’t work, he considered it helpful information that got him closer to figuring out what WOULD work.
What if we thought about failing differently? What if we thought about failing as gathering information to figure out eventually what WILL work? What if we made it a game?
Ramit Sethi, a financial expert who has been featured in many popular news sources, has a refreshing perspective on failure. He believes that failure is evidence that we are stretching ourselves and accomplishing all that we can. He says he expects to fail at least 5 times per month. If he isn’t failing, he says he’s not working hard enough. He keeps track of his failures and uses them as evidence that he is stretching himself, learning, growing, and becoming better. If we aren’t failing on a regular basis, we probably aren’t living our lives to the fullest.
The Wrong Kind of Failure
Failing to try something or not showing up fully in the things we commit to, isn’t the kind of failure that will help us succeed. It is self-sabotage. This type of failing drives us deeper into shame, guilt and despair. The kind of failure that really helps us is the kind where we go all in, but don’t make it. This kind of failure allows us to learn something, and to become stronger.
Failure Lets Us Reach Impossible Goals
The key to failing in the right way is showing up completely. Setting difficult goals and being confident enough to fail in front of others. When we do fail, we don’t beat ourselves up about it. We consider our failures as information that will help us succeed—we turn failure into a game. The upside of failing is getting huge results—results most people are too afraid to pursue or that they believe they can’t obtain: close relationships, health, success, and happiness. Sometimes it costs a few failures, but it’s worth it.
Be Confident Enough to Fail
What are you afraid of failing at?
Change the way you think about failure. Consider it a chance to learn what DOESN’T work and get closer to what does. You may even consider setting a failure quota to measure how far you are stretching yourself.
The Marble Jar: How to Build Trust
Trust is the magic that connects us to people–it allows us to share vulnerable things and to feel close to others. Without trust we become separate entities that only interact on the surface. Trust opens us to deeper and more loving connection. Developing trust may be more simple than you think.
Who Are the People You Trust?
“I will never trust anyone again!” she announced as she slammed the door and slumped down on the floor. Not sure exactly what had prompted the outburst by her third-grade daughter, Brene Brown, a well-known author and researcher probed her daughter a bit more.
The story came tumbling out; she had told an embarrassing moment to a friend during recess. That friend had told other friends and soon everyone was giggling and whispering about her when the teacher came into the classroom. To make matters worse, because of all the talking and giggling, the teacher took marbles out of the class marble jar used to help promote good behavior.
Brene took a big breath and wiped her daughter’s tears. She set aside her desires to beat up her daughter’s friends, and tried to think how to explain trust to her daughter. With the marble jar image fresh in her mind, Brene explained that we share precious things with people who have earned the right to know them. Our trust of others is like a marble jar. Over time people gradually add marbles to the jar with little acts of trust–or lose marbles with small acts of betrayal. Marble jar friends are people who we have learned we can trust and depend on.
Then she asked her daughter, “Do you have any marble jar friends?” “Yes.” Her daughter replied. “How do you know they are marble jar friends?” Brene asked. “Because Laura gives me half a hiney-seat at lunch when there isn’t anywhere else to sit. And, Hannah because she remembered Opa and Oma’s name at the soccer game.” Brene was surprised at the simplicity of things that earned theoretical marbles of trust. Frankly, they weren’t heroic, they were small.
Why Do You Trust Them?
Inspired by this exchange, Brene Brown spent the next several years researching what creates trust. Interestingly, she confirmed exactly what her daughter had first identified; trust is built in small moments. Moments such as; remembering a birthday, smiling and saying hello in the hall, listening and empathizing instead of fixing, showing up at a funeral, remembering a family member’s name, asking follow up questions, following through on what you say you’ll do. Truly trust is built through small acts…putting marbles in the jar consistently over time.
What have the people you trust done to earn your trust?
How Do You Earn The Trust of Others?
Trust is precious. I want the people closest to me to trust me. I love the image of the marble jar as a metaphor of how to build trust. The following are things that research shows build trust and how they have played out in my life.
Examine Your Motives
Humans are astute judges of other’s motives. Most of us have more than one motive for doing things. Our motives don’t have to be 100% altruistic all the time, but they need to have others’ interests at heart.
My husband prefers to do his haircuts at home to save money. Over the years I learned how he liked his hair and every few weeks I would cut it. During a period of time when I was up with my baby at night a lot and I felt in high demand during the day, cutting his hair sometimes felt like one more duty I had to perform. Of course, I loved him, and wanted to help him, but often I felt some resentment that this task meant less sleep or less time I could do something other than helping people all day. I never verbalized this to my husband, but he could tell that I was a bit put out. He knew that I was cutting his hair out of obligation and not love.
One day I came in and he was cutting his own hair. I was surprised. When I asked him why he was cutting his own hair, he explained he felt bad asking me to do his hair when it seemed like it was so stressful for me. He could tell that my motives weren’t pure. Although he was very gracious, I lost some of his trust in that exchange.
Be Reliable
It may seem intuitive that reliability builds trust–however being reliable can be challenging. It certainly requires deliberate effort.
My kids are often slow at getting out of the house. I often have to remind them multiple times to put their shoes on, go to the bathroom, and get out in the car. I realized one day that I’m not very reliable; when I say it’s time to go, I’m still running around grabbing a diaper for my diaper bag, getting my own shoes, or running back in the house to get something I forgot. My children have learned not to trust me when I say it’s time now. I am trying to be more reliable. I have been making an effort to get myself ready first and really be ready to go when I ask them to come. Things have improved—we’re still not smooth as silk but it has improved things. When my kids know I’ll be ready when I call them, they are better at coming right away.
Be Willing to Sacrifice
Sometimes the tiniest sacrifices build the most trust. Small sacrifices can add up over time to be more meaningful than big ones offered once.
My mom made small sacrifices for me growing up. I remember the budget was often tight when I was in my teen years. Like most girls I was anxious to look attractive and feel like I had stylish clothes. I remember multiple times my mom would say, “You can have the clothing budget this month.” I knew she needed new clothes as well, and was giving me the budget knowing how important it was to me. These moments added marbles to my jar.
Notice and Act
Most people aren’t brave enough to ask for help when they really need it unless things get pretty dire. Interestingly, research shows that asking for help is one of the most powerful ways to build trust.
I will always be grateful to an amazing friend, Melinda Call, who knew how to be a marble jar friend. Shortly after my fourth baby she must have noticed the dark bags under my eyes from being up late with my newborn. She casually mentioned she’d be happy to watch my baby one morning a week so that I could have a time I could count on to nap or have time to do whatever I’d like. I was so taken back. I never would have asked someone to do that, and yet I so desperately needed it. She didn’t know that I had struggled with post-partum depression after each of my last 3 children, partially due to lack of sleep and feeling constantly needed without much of a break. My friend just observed and acted.
Own Your Words
If you say something, own it. It’s easy to say something, and mean something else. We diminish trust when we expect others to know from our tone of voice or from our facial expression what we really mean.
One time a friend asked if I could watch her children. Normally I don’t mind watching kids owever, it was a stressful day, and I was feeling overwhelmed and worn down. Her children were lively and busy and I knew it would drain me if I took them that day. Although I wanted to help, I should have probably said no. Instead I agreed to watch her kids not wanting to disappoint my friend.
The kids were particularly difficult–drawing with permanent marker all over my daughter’s new bedspread, breaking some items in the house, and dumping every basket of toys out. I found myself resenting my friend and feeling frustrated that she would ask me to watch her children at the last minute. When she arrived to pick up the kids she asked how it went. “It was fine.” I said. But my tone of voice and face said otherwise.
As I look back, I wasn’t adding many marbles to her jar. I agreed to watch her kids and yet I blamed her for bringing difficult kids over on an inconvenient day. I didn’t own my words when I accepted the responsibility or when I gave the report on the day. My friend, I’m sure, felt mixed signals from me. It must have been confusing and frustrating for her!
Love Even If They Don’t Deserve It
Most of us know when we’ve let someone else down; we feel less lovable. One of the most powerful ways to build trust with others is to love them even when they don’t deserve it.
When stress gets to me and I feel overwhelmed, sometimes I am snappy and critical of my family. Really this isn’t fair and certainly isn’t pleasant. My husband’s response has taught me a lot about trust. Sometimes he will hug me and ask how I’m doing. Occasionally he will ask if he can take the kids while I have some personal time, or make a joke that diffuses the tension. Sometimes he simply ignores it. Loving me through my yucky times and not being critical back to me really melts my heart. It fills my jar of trust. Interestingly it makes me WANT to be more loving and kind.
It’s The Little Things
It’s the little things that build trust–the way we respond when our children spill something, choosing to do something inconvenient because it’s important to someone else, forgiving small or big injustices, smiling just because, deliberately noticing ways we can help, doing what we say we’ll do, owning what we say, and really doing things out of love and not obligation that slowly add up to relationships of trust.
Do the people you love most have a jar full of marbles from you?
Begin adding marbles to their jars by doing small and simple things consistly over time.
Brene Brown tells her story about the marble jar in one of her books, Daring Greatly. She also gives an audio rendition of the story in this video called, “The Anatomy of Trust.”
https://brenebrown.com/videos/anatomy-trust-video/
What The Chinese Teach About Confidence
Confidence is how we feel about ourselves. It sets the stage for everything we do, and determines how well we will do it. It also determines how we feel and how we interact with others. Having self confidence is worth a high price.
How the Chinese Understand Confidence
The direct translation of the word “confidence” in Chinese is, “a person who believes their own words and stands by them.”
信心
I love the way the Chinese define confidence–I think it’s insightful to learn how other cultures construct meanings of concepts. We DO feel confidence when we can trust ourselves to do what we say we will do.
Believing Ourselves
Many times a day we talk to ourselves—sometimes we make informal kinds of resolutions without thinking about it: “I’m so tired, I’ve got to get to bed earlier tonight.” or “I really should take dinner to my neighbor.” Other times we promise ourselves specific things. For example, “I will lose 10 lbs.” or “I am not going to yell at my kids again.”
The way we follow through on our goals, aspirations and promises begins to add up to how we see ourselves and how we feel about ourselves. We quickly learn if we can really believe what we say to ourselves.
If you think about it—it’s the same as any other relationship we have. If I agree with a friend to go to the gym at a certain time each morning and she doesn’t show up, I lose confidence that she will come. If I see that my child rarely responds the first time I ask them to put their shoes on, I stop counting on the fact that they will do it. The same is true for ourselves.
Sometimes it feels less urgent to follow through on our own promises to ourselves because we rationalize, “it isn’t hurting anyone else, right?” Wrong. When we don’t follow through on promises to ourselves, we lose confidence and self-respect. Confidence is the foundation for all of our relationships, our contributions in the world, and our ability to bless others. It matters.
Keep Your Promises to Yourself
One way to build confidence is to make a simple promise yourself, and follow through. For example, a few months ago I decided I wanted to run a 5k race. I knew that meant I would need to work up slowly since I hadn’t run in many years—so I mapped out a plan for increasing my distance a little each month. I have tried to honor that commitment just like I would honor a commitment to a friend. I started with .5 miles. Each month I have increased the distance a little bit.
Last week, it was rainy and cold. I hate running in the cold, so I didn’t go running on my usual morning. Instead I did weights promising myself I’d go the next day. But the next day my girls were sick and it felt too hard to get out. Then Saturday was busy and pretty soon several days had gone by without running. My one little quit made it SO easy to get derailed. Of course, it wasn’t the end of the world, and I just got back on track the next week, but I was disappointed in myself and lost a little of my self-respect knowing I could have gone running even though it was a little uncomfortable.
This morning as I was getting ready to run, my muscles felt tight, and my husband mentioned he needed to leave a little early for work which meant I less time for my run. My brain kept suggesting I could just walk today, or I could do a shorter distance so I wouldn’t have to run faster to get back in time. But, I decided I wanted to honor my commitment to myself. I set my mind to running and decided I wouldn’t stop till my GPS said 3 miles. I really had to book it to make it back in the time I had. But, I did it! I had such a feeling of satisfaction when I saw my GPS clock 3.0 miles this morning. Talk about a hit of self-respect!
I was able to train and run my race. It was incredible to look back and see the incremental progress I made as I stuck to my pain regardless of how I felt. When I lost focus or had little quits, I got back to the plan. It felt amazing to finish the race. Not only did my confidence in running improve, but I learned that I can trust myself to set goals to do hard things and follow through. I know I can count on myself. That is true confidence.
Be Confident
How would you rate your confidence on a scale of 1 to 10?
To increase your confidence, promise yourself to do something small, and follow through. Every time. Even when you don’t feel like it. Even when things come up. You will be surprised at the incredible self-respect you begin to develop.